The other night, I did some “house cleaning”.
I went through all of my e-mail accounts and deleted people who I don’t know, or who I have not heard from in ages and never get e-mails from. I also deleted family members who no longer talk to me, or I don’t talk to them or want nothing to do with me. Then I made all my e-mail accounts private.
I also had 2 “My Space” pages with photo albums and blogs, and more contacts I really don’t know. I deleted both of them completely. Then, I created a new personal e-mail account that I will only give to those deserving of my friendship/relationship…and created a new “My Space”. I sent e-mails to several of the contacts I had there that I do want to keep in contact with…(oops! Just remember someone I forgot to add!)
My thought process goes like this: Everyone knows where I live. Most of my friends and family have my telephone number, e-mail accounts and facebook page. If it is someone who really cares about me, they will contact me. If they don’t, it’s their loss not mine and I should not be bothered by people who only use me. I am tired of being a taxi, delivery service, “loan” company, supply company and messenger service. Family only calls me when they need a ride, need me to pick something up, need to borrow money, need me to make something or need something they know I always have around or want me to “get a message” to someone. Don’t get me wrong! I like to be needed and to be helpful! But there has way to much giving and not enough getting in return.
I am tired of being the one taking the pictures, and not being in the pictures.
So my vow is to change. I am going to learn how to say no, even if I feel guilty at first. I know after a few times of saying no, some people will not ask again. And that’s okay, too! I am not saying I will quit helping all together, but there will be a new me in town. I need to be happy if I am going to survive this hermit life I am living.
From Now on, it’s all about me!
Thanks to all my friends on the internet who have stuck with me through my ups and downs. A big HUG to each of you! Thanks for your kind encouraging words, your uplifting thoughts and your prayers. I truly love you all. My one wish is someday we could all meet and actually exchange those hugs!
Hugs and Love to all!